you deserve it

4 Jun

style counts

17 May


i kicked grad school right in the junk

12 May

…and I couldn’t be happier about it.

I now have a Master’s of Education in Educational Psychology.


my favorite song for the next five minutes: vi

10 May

I can’t stop listening to this on repeat.

i did it!

6 May

I finished the very last assignment for my master’s degree 10 minutes ago.

I graduate on Saturday.

I did it!

Go me!


30 Apr

All, everything that I understand, I understand only because I love.

– Leo Tolstoy

a month left

11 Apr

There are 30 days until graduation.

Holy crap!

I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.

virtual choir 3

2 Apr

Here it is! Virtual Choir 3 singing Eric Whitacre’s “Water Night.” The debut was today.

You can’t see me in any of the close-ups, but I’m hanging out in the lower right quadrant. And if you don’t believe me, my name is in the credits.  ;-)



16 Mar

Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

– Jalal ad-Din Rumi

2012.03.15 zen-log

15 Mar

Start Time:  9:04 pm

Duration:  20 min

Location:  Home

Meditation:  Mindfulness

Notes:  Feeling calm going into meditation today, but started to feel a little bored near the end.

haircut malfunction

15 Mar

I’ve been cutting my own hair for four years now so I guess I was bound to have an accident eventually. Today was that day. Good thing I have a job interview tomorrow.

I had a little slip, so in order to correct it I had to cut it super-mega-short on the sides. On one hand, I have that mohawk I always wanted. On the other hand I kind of look like a new recruit….a male new recruit.

I guess it’s a good thing my hair grows quickly.

gandhi’s top ten

2 Mar

Found this on Facebook and liked it. I thought I’d share.

Have a good weekend everyone!

self-esteem and autism survey

26 Feb

Hi there, folks.

I need people of all kinds to fill out my survey for my master’s research, but I especially need responses from those of you who have autism or Asperger’s. And I tend to get more responses from women. So help me out, men.

Please take a few moments to fill it out, and share it with your friends.

Thanks! I am eternally grateful!

2012.02.25 zen-log

25 Feb

Start Time:  10:37 pm

Duration:  20 min

Location:  Home

Meditation:  Mindfulness

Notes:  Really having trouble keeping myself from thinking about upsetting things during this sit.

shit people say to aspies

22 Feb

I know a lot of people are kind of over the whole “shit people say” meme. But this is the first one about autistics that I have seen and think this video is great. I’ve heard a lot of these comments myself.

Most of the input I get is of the “but you don’t look autistic” variety. A lot of people are well-meaning. Most of the time I don’t get offended because it is due to ignorance and not malice. But when people question whether I’m autistic because I seem “normal” to them it really gets under my skin.

As Wil Wheaton would say, don’t be a jerk!

2012.02.22 zen-log

22 Feb

Start Time:  3:45 pm

Duration:  20 min

Location:  Home

Meditation:  Mindfulness

Notes:  Definitely having resistance issues. Hard to get myself to commit to practicing everyday. Concentration still isn’t what it could be either. Just trucking along for now.

2012.02.16 zen-log

16 Feb

Start Time:  10:30 pm

Duration:  15 min

Location:  Home

Meditation:  Mindfulness

Notes:  I left it until too late in the day. Bad headache and focus problems, so ended up cutting it short.

2012.02.15 zen-log

15 Feb

Start Time:  8:22 pm

Duration:  20 min

Location:  Home

Meditation:  Mindfulness

Notes:  Doing a tiny bit better with focus. I really need to get sitting everyday. Having some sleepiness due to stress induced insomnia from having to deal with the worst week ever. But, still got some sense of stillness from this sitting.

this is now officially the worst week of my life

14 Feb

Shall we recap?

  1. I’ve been utterly depressed because I am single, my ex has a new girlfriend, and I’m not having any luck in my sad attempts at dating.
  2. I am incredibly lonely and not liking myself very much.
  3. I found out that the high school I wanted to do my master’s project at won’t let me do it there because they “only work with PhD candidates” and I am running out of time to do this data collection.
  4. Not having much luck with the other local school districts. I may have to think of a whole new topic and redo all of the work I have done in the last six months, and I have to get the entire thing done by May or I don’t graduate.
  5. Today my company announced that they are closing our State College office, so we’re all laid off.
  6. And it’s Valentine’s Day.

Yep. The universe is taking a giant crap all over my plans.

Life fail.


all the single ladies

12 Feb

Well, the worst holiday of the entire year is in two days. Can you tell I’m jumping up and down right now?

Anyway, I’m trying not to be completely pessimistic and bitchy about it. So I looked for ways to entertain myself. I got sucked into the abyss of YouTube watching funny videos and I discovered the whole “shit ___ people say” fad. Apparently I’ve been living under a rock.

This one is particularly appropos. It made me laugh….and I have said all of these things at one point or another…..except for the part about cats.

Happy VD.



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