Tag Archives: master’s degree

i kicked grad school right in the junk

12 May

…and I couldn’t be happier about it.

I now have a Master’s of Education in Educational Psychology.

Booyah.

i did it!

6 May

I finished the very last assignment for my master’s degree 10 minutes ago.

I graduate on Saturday.

I did it!

Go me!

a month left

11 Apr

There are 30 days until graduation.

Holy crap!

I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.

self-esteem and autism survey

26 Feb

Hi there, folks.

I need people of all kinds to fill out my survey for my master’s research, but I especially need responses from those of you who have autism or Asperger’s. And I tend to get more responses from women. So help me out, men.

Please take a few moments to fill it out, and share it with your friends.

Thanks! I am eternally grateful!

this is now officially the worst week of my life

14 Feb

Shall we recap?

  1. I’ve been utterly depressed because I am single, my ex has a new girlfriend, and I’m not having any luck in my sad attempts at dating.
  2. I am incredibly lonely and not liking myself very much.
  3. I found out that the high school I wanted to do my master’s project at won’t let me do it there because they “only work with PhD candidates” and I am running out of time to do this data collection.
  4. Not having much luck with the other local school districts. I may have to think of a whole new topic and redo all of the work I have done in the last six months, and I have to get the entire thing done by May or I don’t graduate.
  5. Today my company announced that they are closing our State College office, so we’re all laid off.
  6. And it’s Valentine’s Day.

Yep. The universe is taking a giant crap all over my plans.

Life fail.

 

you know what?

9 Sep

I’m angry.

I have to do a project for a class this semester where I have to find a kid with a minor behavioral problem and do an intervention. We have to do a couple of interviews and some data collection throughout the semester.  The professor gave us the first two and a half weeks of class to find someone to work with and do the first interview.  I have six days left and I haven’t gotten anybody yet. I feel like I have asked everybody that I know. There isn’t anybody left.

I’m a good student.  I have a 4.0 GPA for my master’s degree so far. I feel like I’m being penalized because I don’t know very many people and I don’t think that’s fair. I really don’t know what to do.

Not to mention, I haven’t learned anything from this program so far and I already know how to do an intervention because it’s my job. I do it every day.  I don’t need to be doing this stupid project in the first place.

 

Add to that three days of insomnia and a soul-crushing feeling of loneliness and it’s a recipe for disaster.

 

It’s okay.

Bursting into tears while driving the car is perfectly normal.

Right?

aspie self-esteem

4 Sep

I’ve decided on the topic for my master’s research. I want to see if there’s a difference in self-esteem or positive self-regard between teenagers with high functioning autism or Asperger syndrome and their peers.

I’m not sure what my hypothesis is yet though, because there are two conceivable possibilities. The teens with autism have higher self-esteem because they care less about what others think of them and/or they are oblivious to it.  Or, it could be more likely that they have lower self-esteem because they are aware enough to know that they are different and make mistakes in social situations. I don’t know which of these is more likely. When I was a teen with Asperger syndrome I know I had low self-esteem, but that was just me. And then, of course, there’s the possibility that they have the same average level of self-esteem as other teenagers.  After all, being a teenager kind of sucks for everyone.

Anyway, it’s a relief to have a topic. Now I have to work on the specific problem question and then decide what kind of evaluation I will use to measure self-esteem. It should be interesting to see what kind of results I get.

resolve

29 Aug

I was feeling pretty good last week, and now I feel like I’m losing my resolve.

The semester started today and all the stress came flooding back in. And with it, came the loneliness of no longer being in a relationship and not having another person around during stressful times. I have to decide on a research topic by the end of this week. It’s overwhelming. I don’t know what to pick. It has to be something that I can feasibly do a study on. I don’t know what I’m going to do. I feel like I’m not getting much guidance.

I hate school right now.

Only 256 days until graduation.

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